Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Torn

Have you ever felt torn between what you know you should do and what you think is the most logical? Why do we deny what our instincts tell us for the sake of doing what is "right" or more socially acceptable? What holds so many of us back from doing what it is that we truly want to do. If someone asked me right now, if money weren't an issue, what would you be doing with your life? I would say, "staying home with my kids and being as much apart of their lives as possible and writing." That's what I want to do. But something is pulling me to continue on with school. Self doubt creeps in and I start thinking that I won't "make it" without a college education. I think, you only have three semesters left so why not just finish it? I do know that school absolutely felt wrong yesterday. And I am feeling a huge pull to stop school, be a mom, and just focus on one of my first loves which is writing. Why is it that we can't just do what we want without feeling the guilt that you're not doing it "right"? If anyone has any thoughts on this, I would love to hear them. I really don't care if I "know you" or not. We can all be internet friends and call it a day! What are your experiences with being a mom full time or working full time? Are you doing exactly what it is you want to be doing or are you doing something else because you feel like you have to?






1 comment:

  1. Those are some deep questions! I think that we all strive to be doing what we want to do. But sometime other things get in the way. I'm interested to see what you come up with.

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